March 18, 2005
In Memory of Terry
I received the call at 11:30 pm on March 17. Terry was gone.
At first, I was too shocked and just held the phone to my ear. But the moment I put the phone down, the tears started trickling down my face.I cried tears of sadness...but there were also tears of anger. It could have been avoided, I said over and over again. The thoughts "if only..." crossed my mind repeatedly.
It's strange, Terry wasn't even my cat. I've been counting the days we spent together and I don't think it would have even summed up to a month. And yet, I cried more than my boyfriend did. I guess it may be because I became so attached to her...I loved her as if she were my own.
I'd like to think that Terry and I benefited from each other. However, it is humbling to realize that maybe I gained more from our relationship than she did. Some of the happiest moments were the ones when I held her in my arms. I loved hugging her and whispering in her ear "I love you", and she would reply with a gentle "meow" and look at me with her blue eyes as if saying "Yes, I love you too."
She touched my life and brought so much joy in such a short period of time. I only hope that she has happily crossed the Rainbow Bridge, running around and playing, waiting for the day when we will meet again.
At first, I was too shocked and just held the phone to my ear. But the moment I put the phone down, the tears started trickling down my face.I cried tears of sadness...but there were also tears of anger. It could have been avoided, I said over and over again. The thoughts "if only..." crossed my mind repeatedly.
It's strange, Terry wasn't even my cat. I've been counting the days we spent together and I don't think it would have even summed up to a month. And yet, I cried more than my boyfriend did. I guess it may be because I became so attached to her...I loved her as if she were my own.
I'd like to think that Terry and I benefited from each other. However, it is humbling to realize that maybe I gained more from our relationship than she did. Some of the happiest moments were the ones when I held her in my arms. I loved hugging her and whispering in her ear "I love you", and she would reply with a gentle "meow" and look at me with her blue eyes as if saying "Yes, I love you too."
She touched my life and brought so much joy in such a short period of time. I only hope that she has happily crossed the Rainbow Bridge, running around and playing, waiting for the day when we will meet again.
